One of my favorite sketches from when I was taking a break from social media.
Having spent much of my life catering to the needs and desires of others, I felt empty and alone when I wasn’t. I felt I was only recognized for what I did by being there for others.
But I was rarely taking care of myself.
I felt invisible, unless someone made me feel seen. Unless someone saw me. Unless I felt seen by another.
And one way to not feel invisible was to show up on social media.
I’m not going to lie. The likes, the follows, the comments, the subscribers…seeing them go up or down made me feel seen or less seen. The numbers really affected me. So I had to step away. And learn to feel seen by my Self.
It was hard, given that I had very little experience feeling seen. I feel like I’m always calling out for it, but never really FEELING it.
Until I met someone who did see me. And I felt seen.
While I do not see this person anymore, I remember how it felt to be seen by them. And I used that feeling I felt from them to see myself.
As a beautiful, radiant, gorgeous human being.
I wake up smiling to myself in the mirror everyday.
Because I really love what I see.
Behind the eyes,
I see me.
Thank you so much for the kind words from my ”return” post. I realize now I do not have to go through life alone. I do not have to be the best to be seen. I can simply be myself, and that is enough. ♥️
I will be posting more sketches I did while I was away and perhaps update you on my new offering as well. This new offering is inspired by my own recent experiences…and by all of you. I am in love with it and am doing my best to stay present with it until it is ready to be received by you all.
I will talk to you all soon!